Balance

Now that I am in my last leg of pregnancy, I am starting to feel anxious. Some of you may laugh. Starting to feel anxious?! I have been more than apprehensive since the very beginning. A week ago, I had absolute confidence that I could finish everything I had started or had in my head to start. However, I received my work schedule for the month of September, and it became painfully clear: I only have 8 more weeks before I sit and wait. I know, I know--his due date is November 4th (ish). He could be early; he could be late; he could be on-the-dot. But, the planner in me wants this done with time to spare.

The wall remains empty; I am working piece by piece on the perfect, artsy gallery. (One component in particular is giving me trouble, but you don't need to hear the specifics.) My kitchen table has been a wreck for two weeks. I removed everything from a bookshelf in the dining room to paint and redecorate it. It is painted; it is redecorated. I love it, but there was a lot more on that bookshelf than I care to put back... Where will it live? I'd like, above all things to revamp the kitchen a teeny bit (mainly the kid stuff is just piled in one drawer and one shelf; that needs help). The bathrooms needs to be straightened. THE PANTRY NEEDS TO BE REORGANIZED! I found a great idea on Pinterest for this: hang a shoe organizer in there for things like gum, granola bars, individual snacks, et cetera. That will be did. Then, the nursery. I can't be in that room because I still have no clue how to put it all together. I have the pieces; I have the inspiration.

I also have plans for little projects I'd like to do for my artist-self's sake. Bowls made from recycled magazines, leather-wrapped bracelets, a paper organizer (courtesy of the marvelous Martha Stewart) for above my desk--speaking of which: I'd also like to instigate a renaissance for my desk.

There is an ever-growing stack of coupons on my desk. This cannot be. Those have to remain well-kept or food won't get put in the house. My obsession with coupons has not changed; it has been back-burnered unfortunately. This does not mean I ever shop without them. Instead, I take my stockpile for granted and give myself permission to skip grocery shopping this week. I did not use this time to organize the coupons, though!!

Then there is the regular stuff. Susie Homemaker would be proud--okay, she wouldn't be proud, but neither would she be entirely disappointed. The kitchen keeps clean, the laundry is done every Friday, I make our bed every morning, what-have-you.

The long-overdue point is this: I need balance. I need focus. And, it seems irrational to add something else, like yoga and meditation, to the fray.